Brycen called me this morning and he was like “Hello my fiancé”…
I totally thought, this really is happening to me. I really am going to get
married to my best friend and the love of my life. So here it is our story, the
story, whatever you want to call it. I have been waiting for this moment my
entire life, and pretty much since I met him so I’ll just explain our ENTIRE
story (it’s long, you can just skip to the last paragraph if you want the
engagement story) then you can know why when he asked me to marry him I knew it
was right, because he’s my match!
OK so probably close to three years ago Sarah and I were at
a ward talent show when Brycen and Anthony walked in and caused a ruckus in the
back and I thought they were both really annoying. Anyway, they became regular members
of the ward but I really didn’t pay a lot of attention to them. B was dating
someone else and I totally wasn’t into him at all. So flash forward about a
year or so and I had to work during New Year’s Eve and I was pretty bummed because
I had to leave my family. So anyway I got invited to a party and B happened to
show up at like 2:00 in the morning (to which I think I rolled my eyes and
though oh typical). Anyway, we ended up talking and I thought that maybe he
wasn’t that bad. He had a reputation has being a player and a rebel so I sort
of just kept my distance, plus I thought he was dating someone else too…
My roommate at the time actually liked him so I would sort
of be her wing man when we would go over to his house. Pretty soon we started
become friends, and I realized that I maybe had feelings for him. Which was
crazy because honestly he was off limits; but, the more time I spent with him
the more feelings I was developing, and the craziest thing was that I knew that
he was going to have a HUGE impact on my life. I’ve never felt that before, but
it was an instant connection. We just have SO much in common. I didn’t know
what to do so finally I just asked him on a group date we all put together. It
was a lot of fun, and from then on I was totally into him. I wish I could say
that we both fell madly in love and that was the end of it, but it’s only the
beginning. Looking back I realize now that the Lord was preparing us to be
together, just not in the way I wanted. Funny how that happens I guess. We
spent every day together, and had so much fun, we become best friends. Then he
had to move away to Texas to sell for the summer and I was really scared,
mostly because things were so up in the air. We weren’t together, but we acted
like a couple. In my mind I didn’t want to date anybody else, but to him he
wasn’t ready to commit.
Last summer was one of the hardest things I’ve ever experienced.
When he left I just cried and cried. I didn’t think I would miss him as much as
I did. Bryce really struggled in Texas. He couldn’t seem to get into any sort
of groove he had a hard time selling, he missed me (even though I’m sure he
wouldn’t say that wasn’t the entire reason… ha), he missed the ward and our
friends, and he felt people were changing without him. We still texted every day
and that would be the highlight of my days mostly. Sometimes I wouldn’t hear
from him until late in the afternoon or sometimes in the morning, but whenever
I would hear from him my little heart would skip a beat. I kept wishing he
would call me more, but I was satisfied with a phone call here and there. Then
he got the internet and we Skyped, that totally rocked my world. Towards the
end of Texas I realized that I was in love with Brycen Taylor, but I couldn’t
tell him that. I’m sure deep down he knew how I felt because well I would do
anything for him. It’s weird though, I really didn’t trust him, but I loved
him.
The end of June he transferred up to Salt Lake City and I
honestly thought that this was going to it, our time. He had confessed to me
how much he liked me and how much he loved being my friend, but he still had “hang
ups”. When I went down to visit him for the first time since he left I was so
nervous to see him. That first time was great though, and that’s the first time
he really held my hand. After that I fell more in love and he seemed well to be
teetering on the edge. We went to California together in July and I had so much
fun with him, and I fell even more in love with him. Finally after a month of
up and down all the time I just let him have it. I was either you’re my boyfriend
or give me space. So he gave me space (for one day), that’s when he used the
analogy of the magnet. He’s like no matter what happens or how I think it
should happen I always come back to you, you are this magnet that always draws
me back in. August however was rough, really really rough, and September wasn’t
any easier. September I gave up, but my bishop encouraged me to just hang on
for a little while longer and just let B know I supported him because well he
was going through some things. B was a completely different man, and I didn’t
know what to do so I prayed and the same answer was just like anything else I
had gotten, patience.
October was well our defining moment. After so many months
of ups and downs and me pressuring, he finally said that he loved me, and he
kissed me (OK so we had obviously before, but I count this time as our real
first kiss because it meant something to both of us). Just when I thought we
had made it, B maybe was having 2nd thoughts, so I did the only
thing I thought I could do, I walked away. I told him to leave me alone, don’t
call me, don’t text me, if you see me act like I don’t exist because I can’t do
this anymore. I don’t think I have cried as much as I did those days. I just
cried and cried because I was mourning him and what I knew we had and could
have. My friends and family were amazing during this time and they helped me
see that even though I loved Brycen, I deserved to have a commitment. I don’t
believe in coincidences and I know that of all the places to be on a Friday
night with my family, B just happened to be there too. We didn’t really talk,
but it hurt to see him. I’ve never had anxiety problems or anything like that,
but when he was in the same room and we were ignoring each other I literally
had to have Mariah hold me. I’ve never felt that before, but I guess that’s
what happens when your heart breaks. The next day I went to the temple for
answers and behold I got one, not the kind of answer I thought, but I knew I
had to go and see him. When I walked into his house and saw him I knew that I
would marry him, I just knew it would all work out.
The beginning of December B was struggling still with decisions
and commitment because I was pushing for our relationship to go to the next
level and he was so hesitant because well marriage is scary for anyone, but especially
someone who’s been married before. I let him figure it out on his own but by
now I was confident that whatever would happen would be the right thing. On December
2nd I made him pinky promise me that either we progress and head
towards marriage or we leave each other alone for good. The next week we went
ring shopping and in February I got to meet his kids in person (which was so
scary but so amazing at the same time), and he asked my dad if he could marry
me. The past month it has been painful, haha, I just wanted to be engaged and I
was sick of being patient. I’ve been patient for a whole year, but B is one
that has to do things on his own time and be ready for it. When we went to the
temple last weekend we both felt it, felt what we were doing was right, it’s
weird because I don’t think we were looking for that answer but we both got the
same witness. Pretty darn awesome!
So now we have how he proposed. Silly B can never keep a
secret from me because well I’m just smart, and he gets so excited he can’t
contain himself. I had one of the worst days EVER yesterday, I cried most of
the day because of stress and work and I was just so overwhelmed. My family was
coming into town so we headed down to Rigby to chill at his mom’s house until
my family came. Looking back at it now, B was really antsy, and ADD. Anyway, it
was getting time to go and I he kept asking me if I wanted some Easter candy,
to which I kept saying, No I don’t want any candy I’m full. Then him mom kept
asking, finally I looked down in the bag and there was my ring. From then on I
just kept saying “what is this? Are you for real?” I was totally surprised, and
shocked. I think when I called my family (since they knew it was coming) I was
still in a haze. He surprised me further by getting me the wedding band to go
with my already ginormous and diamond studded ring. So altogether my ring is
over 2 carats. WOW, I can’t stop staring at my hand! Later when it finally
settled in I got pretty emotional, but that’s ok, B’s used to it.
So we are getting married August 11, 2012 in the Rexburg,
Idaho Temple. We are so excited, and so happy. He’s my match in every way, and
even though it both took us a long time to get here we made it and honestly I
wouldn’t have it any other way. Brycen has totally transformed into someone who
I love, admire, and want to be like. He has an amazing family, and two adorable
children. He makes me laugh, appreciate the small things, and humbles me to be
a better person and friend. I still can’t believe I’m getting married, it’s all
surreal. I’m so blessed and it’s almost overwhelming how many opportunities and
blessings I do have. I’m so excited to start my next adventure in life with my
best friend and fiancé (that’s weird typing…
haha). So I guess this won’t be Savanna’s Sagas anymore, it maybe can be the
Taylor Sagas… yeah I think I like that, no strike that, I LOVE it!
The first time I saw the ring!
I am looking at him and saying "Uh what is this?"
Putting my ring on!
Asking if I will marry him...
To which I replied YES!
Here it is! Isn't it beautiful!?
