Thursday, March 29, 2012

Awkward and Awesome Thursday!

Here we are awkward and awesome, this week has been amazing but also troublesome too. Part of life and making changes I guess!

Awkward:

  • Seeing someone you know on a online dating website. OK so I wasn't on it, but a co-worker was and when she came to me and showed me who she found I about DIED. So funny, Eastern Idaho is SUCH a small world.
  • People who can't be happy for you. Even if you don't agree with my decisions at least be a friend and say congratulations!
  • Answering my cell phone with "North Wind this is Savanna" when it's a family member. OK so it was funny, but you can tell that my work is crazy!
  • Never fails, EVERYWHERE we go B knows someone, which that's not a bad thing, it's more awkward when he's like "uh I think I kissed her once"... 
  • Watching Emma do a somersault with her 7 months along pregnant belly. She wasn't awkward, just seeing her do it was interesting. I will commend her for her ability though, I was impressed.
  • Fake people, I know you are talking behind my back, get real I wasn't born yesterday.
  • Drooling when you sleep... 
  • Dumb people in the movie theater. If you want to pass around the huge bucket of popcorn to EVERY person in the movie, just wait until it comes on out DVD. Also, who eats Nerds in a theater? Loudest candy EVER!
  • I was at Broulims a couple days ago and I was checking and the cashier was like "Oh I love your ring, where did you get it?" I answered "Uh from my fiance". Then she replied "Oh wow, that's real? I totally thought it was fake"... I just smiled and nodded... I didn't know what to say.
  • I'm still homeless... hopefully though we can find something soon!
Awesome:

  • Being engaged is pretty much the most awesome thing that has happened this week. I'm still a little in lala land but it's super fun. Plus, I love my ring, it's just beautiful. Thank you to B!
  • OK so I've also had a dramatic week, maybe just because I've been emotional but B is so great, and he totally defends me and I know that he's ALWAYS on my side. That's so comforting to know! 
  • How happy my family is for me, they are just as excited as I am! I love that they are supportive!
  • I'm excited for the new family I'll be gaining! 
  • I can already tell that I'm going to LOVE having a BFF who is an event planner... it's pretty much amazing.
  • So we had to change the date of our wedding because the temple was closed on that day, and I freaked out a LOT when I heard that, but my awesome mother totally helped me fix the problem and in the end I realized as long as we get married in A temple it doesn't really matter.
  • General Conference is this weekend. It's crazy to think about this time last year and how much everything has changed!
  • Seeing my family was so great!
  • I'm in love with Instagram. It's so cool!
  • When great things happen to you its really amazing to see who totally supports you and is happy for you, the overwhelming love and sincerity from friends and loved ones has been so awesome!
  • I'm in love!

Monday, March 26, 2012

Families and Hunger Games!

Ok so after being engaged I’m still in lala land a little. On Sunday I had a couple people ask me if I have started planning to which I started to get a tiny bit of anxiety, because well I haven’t. I’ve just been enjoying being engaged. Funny. Anyway this weekend was great a lot of family activities which is always delightful. This weekend Hyrum, Emma, and Mariah all came up to visit. So they were there the night I got engaged which was so fun. So Friday night B had homework and then I needed a pedicure so that was great. We then headed to Rigby to chill with them. We just watched some basketball games and talked. I was pretty exhausted because I didn’t really sleep the night before because well I was just all in a buzz.

Saturday we got up and got ready to go see Hunger Games. Ok so side note I was really excited to see this movie because I knew it was good. I mean the night I called Jenn to tell her I was engaged she thought I was calling about the movie and for 5 minutes just went off about how amazing it was etc… finally I was like uh Jenn I’m engaged and we both started laughing. It was just so funny!! So I knew it was going to be so good. Anyway we were way excited… we got tickets for the matinee at 12:30 and it was sold out! That’s crazy! The movie was SO good, and I cried in it too. Definitely a great adaptation of the books for sure. B was laughing at me because I was getting so annoyed with the people beside me who were chomping SO loudly on their popcorn. This is a movie people!! Then we took Hyrum and Emma to Chick-fil-A since Hyrum has never been there. So good! Then we did some shopping, and I fell in love with these Coach shoes at TJMaxx. I should have just bought them, I’m still coveting them right now. Then we just chilled at Emma’s sisters house. It was so good to just be with family. I know that they are all so happy for us!

Sunday B’s sister was blessing their baby Tayvree. So we were supposed to be in Rigby at 9. I kept calling B the closer it kept getting to 9 but he never answered. So I hurried and drove over there and woke him up. B was so funny, he was just wandering around and I was like uh hello let’s go! He just wanted to take a shower and I was like we don’t have time we can do it later. We ended up barely missing it but Megan understood. We still got to celebrate with them later that night. Megan and Tyson are just so great, I really am so blessed that I’m going to be part of their family. They’ve helped B and me out a lot! It’s great that his family and my family are so supportive and so excited for us; it really helps us feel like we are making the right decision and the best decision for us. We are so blessed.  We even got to Skype the kids, and they are so funny and so cute. I can’t wait until we get to see them again! Hopefully it’s before the wedding!

Overall it was a great weekend. B and I have come to discover that the more we try to do what’s right the harder we are tempted and we encounter things that tear us down and make us want to give up. That’s when you just have to keep on enduring and get through it and the rewards will be so much better!

PS - Here are some pics from the Hunger Games... Ok so B apparently has a hard time keeping his eyes open, something about flashes and dark (notice how the rest of us handled it just fine)... He better fix that before the slew of wedding and engagement photos have to be taken...HA!
 Hyrum and Emma!!
 This is like the 5th picture we took!
 Wow honestly B?!
 Not even when upclose!
BAHAHAHA!

Friday, March 23, 2012

This is our Love Story...and I said Yes!

Brycen called me this morning and he was like “Hello my fiancĂ©”… I totally thought, this really is happening to me. I really am going to get married to my best friend and the love of my life. So here it is our story, the story, whatever you want to call it. I have been waiting for this moment my entire life, and pretty much since I met him so I’ll just explain our ENTIRE story (it’s long, you can just skip to the last paragraph if you want the engagement story) then you can know why when he asked me to marry him I knew it was right, because he’s my match!
OK so probably close to three years ago Sarah and I were at a ward talent show when Brycen and Anthony walked in and caused a ruckus in the back and I thought they were both really annoying. Anyway, they became regular members of the ward but I really didn’t pay a lot of attention to them. B was dating someone else and I totally wasn’t into him at all. So flash forward about a year or so and I had to work during New Year’s Eve and I was pretty bummed because I had to leave my family. So anyway I got invited to a party and B happened to show up at like 2:00 in the morning (to which I think I rolled my eyes and though oh typical). Anyway, we ended up talking and I thought that maybe he wasn’t that bad. He had a reputation has being a player and a rebel so I sort of just kept my distance, plus I thought he was dating someone else too…
My roommate at the time actually liked him so I would sort of be her wing man when we would go over to his house. Pretty soon we started become friends, and I realized that I maybe had feelings for him. Which was crazy because honestly he was off limits; but, the more time I spent with him the more feelings I was developing, and the craziest thing was that I knew that he was going to have a HUGE impact on my life. I’ve never felt that before, but it was an instant connection. We just have SO much in common. I didn’t know what to do so finally I just asked him on a group date we all put together. It was a lot of fun, and from then on I was totally into him. I wish I could say that we both fell madly in love and that was the end of it, but it’s only the beginning. Looking back I realize now that the Lord was preparing us to be together, just not in the way I wanted. Funny how that happens I guess. We spent every day together, and had so much fun, we become best friends. Then he had to move away to Texas to sell for the summer and I was really scared, mostly because things were so up in the air. We weren’t together, but we acted like a couple. In my mind I didn’t want to date anybody else, but to him he wasn’t ready to commit.
Last summer was one of the hardest things I’ve ever experienced. When he left I just cried and cried. I didn’t think I would miss him as much as I did. Bryce really struggled in Texas. He couldn’t seem to get into any sort of groove he had a hard time selling, he missed me (even though I’m sure he wouldn’t say that wasn’t the entire reason… ha), he missed the ward and our friends, and he felt people were changing without him. We still texted every day and that would be the highlight of my days mostly. Sometimes I wouldn’t hear from him until late in the afternoon or sometimes in the morning, but whenever I would hear from him my little heart would skip a beat. I kept wishing he would call me more, but I was satisfied with a phone call here and there. Then he got the internet and we Skyped, that totally rocked my world. Towards the end of Texas I realized that I was in love with Brycen Taylor, but I couldn’t tell him that. I’m sure deep down he knew how I felt because well I would do anything for him. It’s weird though, I really didn’t trust him, but I loved him.
The end of June he transferred up to Salt Lake City and I honestly thought that this was going to it, our time. He had confessed to me how much he liked me and how much he loved being my friend, but he still had “hang ups”. When I went down to visit him for the first time since he left I was so nervous to see him. That first time was great though, and that’s the first time he really held my hand. After that I fell more in love and he seemed well to be teetering on the edge. We went to California together in July and I had so much fun with him, and I fell even more in love with him. Finally after a month of up and down all the time I just let him have it. I was either you’re my boyfriend or give me space. So he gave me space (for one day), that’s when he used the analogy of the magnet. He’s like no matter what happens or how I think it should happen I always come back to you, you are this magnet that always draws me back in. August however was rough, really really rough, and September wasn’t any easier. September I gave up, but my bishop encouraged me to just hang on for a little while longer and just let B know I supported him because well he was going through some things. B was a completely different man, and I didn’t know what to do so I prayed and the same answer was just like anything else I had gotten, patience.
October was well our defining moment. After so many months of ups and downs and me pressuring, he finally said that he loved me, and he kissed me (OK so we had obviously before, but I count this time as our real first kiss because it meant something to both of us). Just when I thought we had made it, B maybe was having 2nd thoughts, so I did the only thing I thought I could do, I walked away. I told him to leave me alone, don’t call me, don’t text me, if you see me act like I don’t exist because I can’t do this anymore. I don’t think I have cried as much as I did those days. I just cried and cried because I was mourning him and what I knew we had and could have. My friends and family were amazing during this time and they helped me see that even though I loved Brycen, I deserved to have a commitment. I don’t believe in coincidences and I know that of all the places to be on a Friday night with my family, B just happened to be there too. We didn’t really talk, but it hurt to see him. I’ve never had anxiety problems or anything like that, but when he was in the same room and we were ignoring each other I literally had to have Mariah hold me. I’ve never felt that before, but I guess that’s what happens when your heart breaks. The next day I went to the temple for answers and behold I got one, not the kind of answer I thought, but I knew I had to go and see him. When I walked into his house and saw him I knew that I would marry him, I just knew it would all work out.
The beginning of December B was struggling still with decisions and commitment because I was pushing for our relationship to go to the next level and he was so hesitant because well marriage is scary for anyone, but especially someone who’s been married before. I let him figure it out on his own but by now I was confident that whatever would happen would be the right thing. On December 2nd I made him pinky promise me that either we progress and head towards marriage or we leave each other alone for good. The next week we went ring shopping and in February I got to meet his kids in person (which was so scary but so amazing at the same time), and he asked my dad if he could marry me. The past month it has been painful, haha, I just wanted to be engaged and I was sick of being patient. I’ve been patient for a whole year, but B is one that has to do things on his own time and be ready for it. When we went to the temple last weekend we both felt it, felt what we were doing was right, it’s weird because I don’t think we were looking for that answer but we both got the same witness. Pretty darn awesome!
So now we have how he proposed. Silly B can never keep a secret from me because well I’m just smart, and he gets so excited he can’t contain himself. I had one of the worst days EVER yesterday, I cried most of the day because of stress and work and I was just so overwhelmed. My family was coming into town so we headed down to Rigby to chill at his mom’s house until my family came. Looking back at it now, B was really antsy, and ADD. Anyway, it was getting time to go and I he kept asking me if I wanted some Easter candy, to which I kept saying, No I don’t want any candy I’m full. Then him mom kept asking, finally I looked down in the bag and there was my ring. From then on I just kept saying “what is this? Are you for real?” I was totally surprised, and shocked. I think when I called my family (since they knew it was coming) I was still in a haze. He surprised me further by getting me the wedding band to go with my already ginormous and diamond studded ring. So altogether my ring is over 2 carats. WOW, I can’t stop staring at my hand! Later when it finally settled in I got pretty emotional, but that’s ok, B’s used to it.
So we are getting married August 11, 2012 in the Rexburg, Idaho Temple. We are so excited, and so happy. He’s my match in every way, and even though it both took us a long time to get here we made it and honestly I wouldn’t have it any other way. Brycen has totally transformed into someone who I love, admire, and want to be like. He has an amazing family, and two adorable children. He makes me laugh, appreciate the small things, and humbles me to be a better person and friend. I still can’t believe I’m getting married, it’s all surreal. I’m so blessed and it’s almost overwhelming how many opportunities and blessings I do have. I’m so excited to start my next adventure in life with my best friend and fiancĂ©  (that’s weird typing… haha). So I guess this won’t be Savanna’s Sagas anymore, it maybe can be the Taylor Sagas… yeah I think I like that, no strike that, I LOVE it!
 The first time I saw the ring!
 I am looking at him and saying "Uh what is this?"
 Putting my ring on!
 Asking if I will marry him...
 To which I replied YES!
Here it is! Isn't it beautiful!?

Thursday, March 22, 2012

Awesome Thursday

I know that it's just supposed to be Awkward and Awesome Thursday, but at the current moment I can't think of anything that is super awkward. Mostly because I have just had a bad week. So maybe it will help me to just focus on the awesome things:

  • I have a new nephew, and that's amazing.
  • Mariah, Emma, and Hyrum are coming to visit. I'm really excited to spend some time with them.
  • We are going to the Hunger Games on Saturday.
  • I never really knew what love was until it is tried, and then proven. Real love is unconditional and I'm so blessed to have someone who is patient, understanding, and kind especially when I am not that way all the time.
  • Life is about trials and how you deal with them. So instead of getting mad at the world, it's better (sometimes) to just let it go. 
  • Crying sometimes is the BEST therapy.
  • Institute, I've never really had a testimony of it until B forces me to go and I feel the spirit every time. Silly me. 
  • That I can go anywhere and do anything with B and will see someone he knows and he has a GOOD story about them... it's like I'm dating the President or something.
  • If you are loyal and work hard for people they will back you up and bail you out when you need them. So what goes around comes around is exactly true.
  • It's the small things, like a random cake ball, or even a DVD. 
  • Friends who are your side no matter what, and will even succumb to really funny name calling.
  • Phone calls
  • New finger nail polish
  • Knowing that every time I talk to Brycen I will undoubtedly laugh at something...which is comforting in itself.
  • Having faith in something, even if it's faith that everything will work out and be OK.

The day is almost over, and I'm grateful for that. I'm sure I'll encounter some awkward memories that I can post about later... Cheers!

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Don't be Stupid!

After a drama filled evening I couldn't agree more with Jenn and her post yesterday (read it here)... It really is EXACTLY how I am feeling today!

She hit it right on the head. I just don't get people sometimes. I don't get why they are inconsiderate, why they can't understand how their choices effect others, and why sometimes they just can't mind their own business? Honestly. Am I perfect? Uh no. Is it a human flaw to be selfish at times? Yes. I however at least sometimes try to think about how my actions will effect other, ESPECIALLY when you make a choice that involves others. Would it be too much to stop and think "hmm if I made this choice who would it effect?" or "is this really of my concern?" or my personal favorite "I care about this person, their well being, and personal space, therefore I will choose accordingly". I guess that is just wishful thinking.

I think we all forget that once something is said, it cannot be undone. I've stuck my foot in my mouth plenty of times, and felt pretty stupid too, but that stupidity is life's way of telling you that you need to apologize.

Finally, if something is indeed said in confidence, keep it that way. I've learned this the hard way, and I know who I can and cannot trust to keep my secrets. We all need to vent sometimes, and I know when my friends are venting, because well they just spout of nonsense, but I listen and offer suggestions etc... I would never repeat what was said, that's just common sense.

Now go out and change the world, and don't be stupid!


Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Nephew #2 & The Weekend!

My weekend was eventful. All good events of course, but still fun. Most importantly because I am an aunt AGAIN:
 
Reece was born on St. Patrick’s Day at 4:30 a.m. We all thought he would be a huge fat baby but actually he was only 7 lbs. Kenzie and Austin are doing great, and in fact they get to take Reece home today because his Jaundice is down enough to let him go home. I don’t know how Liam will handle the new addition, but I’m sure there will be adjustments to be made for sure. I’m so excited to go down to Parma soon and see him. They are only little for so long before they start growing like a weed! Next baby to be born is Hyrum’s, then we will have a full entourage! Congrats Austin and Kenzie!

Friday that boy of mine bought me Footloose (the new one), because when that came out in theaters we will just say that B and I weren’t exactly on talking terms. So he bought me the movie to make up for not taking me to it in the first place. He sure does spoil me, but you know I love it! That night we also went to watch a basketball game and saw this going on in the I Center.
 
I don’t know how people develop this talent of “tight rope” walking but it was actually quite entertaining. One guy even did a flip.

Saturday was a busy day, B had a lot of homework he had to do and I just needed to do my normal Saturday things. Anyway, we had the opportunity to go to the temple and do baptisms for the dead. I haven’t done them in SO long. The best part is that B even got to confirm and baptize me. It was such a good experience, and I’m glad that I took the time to go there and to have the opportunity to be there with B. I think when I left the temple I had one of those giddy grins on my face because I was indeed just happy.
Sunday we had Elder Chambers from the Seventy come to our ward and also do a fireside that night. What a great experience too!
The next couple of weeks are going to be jam packed at work and at home. I’m currently still looking for a place to live which stresses me out more than anything but B is always so good and calms me down and reassures me that I will not be homeless and there is no need to freak out. Can I just say that housing is so expensive?! Ei yi yi! My brother is coming this weekend, and of course the Hunger Games comes out. Then B has finals, and we have baby blessings, weddings, and ward parties to plan and attend. Phew! Don’t get me started on work and how crazy it has been either!
I’ve just come to realize especially Saturday night how blessed I am. I used to say lucky, but then my dad corrects me and says that they are blessings. Part of being obedient is being blessed, so there you go. I’m not perfect and I have a long way to go, but I was just overwhelmed with happiness because it’s been a long road and finally I can sort of see where my life is supposed to go. I can see the way the Lord has answered some of my prayers, and I guess I just got that “zing” where I realized that the temple is where I’m supposed to be.

Thursday, March 15, 2012

Awkward and Awesome Thursday

This whole week has been extra-long, maybe it’s because of the time change, or because I haven’t felt the best, I’m not really sure. I am however excited that it’s almost the weekend and I have a lot of awkward and awesome moments to share. Most of them involve me, I know I’m usually pretty cool, but this week I didn’t exactly “shine”… HA!
Awkward:
  • Listening to co-workers have a conversation about sex, and it’s pretty detailed. Awkward. It’s those times where you really don’t want to listen but you can’t help it, they aren’t exactly talking quietly. So awkward, I shudder thinking about how uncomfortable I felt.
  • Saturday I was Brycenless so I was totally cleaning up a storm. What’s the point in getting ready for the day when you are just going to get nasty cleaning? Well you know I made a trip to the carwash and I thought I could just remain in my car, but no I had to get out and so there I am in my sweats, braless, trying to feel as confident as they wash down my car. OH Hey!!!
  • Oh you know I put my iPad on the floor in front of me at Institute last night, only to have the guy in front of me move his chair, for the longest 2 seconds of my life I saw him place his chair on my iPad and then sit down. I’m surprised I didn’t full out scream, I did more of a shove him off his chair sort of move while trying not to imagine my iPad cracked… don’t worry the iPad is safe, don’t know about him though!
  • You know in movies when people sleep it looks so peaceful and beautiful. Apparently this is how I sleep:
Totally awkward and embarrassing. Not only am I snoring, but I have this low snore, plus I look TOTALLY uncomfortable, can you say triple chin? Funny… but awkward. Watch your back B!

  • I have this weird thing, I hate calling strangers, it just is my least favorite thing to do. I feel so awkward. So imagine how awkward I felt this week setting up appointments for new apartments to rent. Ei yi yi!

Awesome:
  • That even though I am super overwhelmed with every aspect of my life right now, I can still sit down and enjoy a good movie and popcorn with B and forget about my troubles for a little while.
  • No baby Reece yet, but tomorrow he will most definitely be here!! I already love, and his parents too!
  • My brother who I love so much turns a quarter of a century tomorrow… Happy Birthday Hyrum! It’s his first birthday I won’t celebrate with him in like what 5 years? That’s sad, but I know Emma will take good care of him!
  • I’m down 5 pounds this week, booyah!
  • It’s totally warmer outside, which means I have started the transition into summer footwear. Ok, so I haven’t parted with my boots yet, but I can feel it. It is coming!
  • Even though apartment hunting is annoying and stressful, it’s actually a lot of fun this time around.
  • Good luck to Mom and Maddie, they have state cheer this weekend, I hope they rock the socks off of everyone!
  • Diet Dr. Pepper!!
  • Going to the temple this weekend, I’m pretty much excited!
  • It’s incredibly awesome how patient B can be with me, especially this week… bless his heart!

Monday, March 12, 2012

Crack is Whack and so is Stealing!

In blog world I’ve been slacking. In real human world I’ve been super busy. I would rather live in blog world I’m positive. I’ve missed some awkward and awesome moments, plus I had to have a crown put in that lasted 3 hours, plus I had a great weekend, plus it was daylight savings time, plus my checking account was hacked, plus I’m debit cardless (which might as well mean I’m moneyless). Jesh, that’s a lot to take it (and a really bad run on sentence). So I’ll just start now:

Warning!!! Obscene picture!!


So last week at Institute B and I were put into groups, you know read this scripture in Isaiah and figure it out group. Anyway, we are usually in our own little world (and I’m pretty sure we were having a drawing war with our Draw Something Game my new favorite), when B elbowed me and told me to look over. This is what I saw:
Most awkward moment of my life, ok that’s an exaggeration but still… I couldn’t stop giggling, and I know it’s rude and it’s one of those moments where you act like you don’t see anything, but this was beyond the fact of cracking out, I call this a full on moon. (Ok so it didn’t help that I had been at the dentist for 3 hours or more trying to get a crown put in, and so I was still on Novocain and super numb). For the rest of the night all we did was make crack jokes like we are 15 or something! Hyrum, Jenn, and I always talked about cracking out, and some people are just blessed with a smaller crack than others, either way, you can’t dispute this!
Thursday I got to hang out with Sarah and my old friends for her bridal shower.  It was a good time. The funny thing is she caught me in the mall buying her present. She was a great actress when opening my present acting so surprised. HA! It was good to just catch up and hang with my old friends. The most awesome thing that happened this week was that after I got home super late after everything B stopped whatever he was doing and listened to me talk about girly bridal shower stuff and my day. No distractions just listened and that was the most awesome thing ever!
Friday B decided to come to my work and take me to lunch. I love when he does that, totally surprised me. It was great! Then that night we went out for sushi and hung out with Anthony and Dani. We ended up watching The Bodyguard, RIP Whitney! Saturday B had to go to Twin Falls for the entire day so I got a lot of spring cleaning done. I even had time to run and go tanning. We were going to go to a hip-hop show but B couldn’t leave as early as he thought. So when he finally got back to Rexburg he was exhausted. I had about 1 hour of real time with him before he became “sleepy B”. Sunday B and I had to sing in church. It went really good and B was super nervous because he’s never really sang in a small group before. He did awesome and he has the most beautiful voice, pretty soon he’ll be singing solos I just know it!  We also had the chance to go visit B’s sister Megan and see the kids and the new baby Tayvree. She’s getting so big with a ton of hair and it’s always good to go and hang out with them. We watched Jack and Jill last night too, funny but totally random.
Today I was checking my checking account to pay the rest of the month’s bills and I saw that I had a couple fraudulent charges. US Bank was great to work with and I’m totally confident I’ll get my money back I’m just without a Debit card for a couple of days. I would be OK with this, except that I need to get gas. It’s just inconvenient mostly, and annoying. I really really dislike dishonest people. Don’t be taking my hard earned money. That’s just RUDE!
Oh and if you wondering why I’m not blogging about my new nephew who was supposed to arrive, you can read my sister-in-laws blog with all the details. Bless, that little Reese. He’s enjoying himself in there apparently.
Work is starting to pick up these days that must be event season is starting. AH! I’m not ready! This summer is going to be one to remember I have a feeling ;)
Happy Monday!

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

"Blues" Travelers

It seems like I haven’t posted in forever. I’m just been super busy at work, and you know dealing with real life. Not that my life is boring by any means, but it seems like lately I’ve been in a no-fun rut. Now don’t get me wrong, I always try to make an situation fun, but sometimes I think that I’ve spoiled myself in the sense that real life is about working and to do lists, than playing. Last year all I did was play and now I look back at it and I realize that I really suffered too, I didn’t sleep enough, spent way too much money, and stopped enjoying “me times” of life. I think I’ve figured out what I have, it’s called the Winter Blues. It’s that time when nature teases me with spring, but it’s still freezing, or better yet I dream of my summer only to see snow falling outside. C’mon Mother Nature cut me a break. I want the sun, the water, the heat. I miss the miserable heat. At this point if I didn’t have B who makes me laugh all the time, I might have moved to Florida! Yesterday I found myself looking at pictures of Bora Bora. Oh if only, if only. Don’t be alarmed, I get this way every year. I suffer through March and April so when May finally comes I can rejoice in the fact that I can wear my cute sandals and shorts. Until then I will dream of my vacations to warm tropical islands…

In the meantime I focus on real life. One of BFF’s Sarah is getting married in less that month. That’s so crazy! We lived together total about 3 years. Best roommate ever! I’m excited she’s getting married and I get to be there! More great news… sister-in-law Kenzie is going to have nephew numero two on Friday. I’m beyond excited. I’m totally in love with Liam, and I can’t wait to welcome baby Reece into the world. I’m so excited they live in Parma so I can visit everyone at once. He’s already a big baby, so I’m sure there will be lots of cheeks to pinch and kiss. Hyrum and Emma are due in May so I’m excited for a new niece too. Bring on the babies, being an aunt is probably my most favorite thing ever!

This past weekend was about homework (for B) and I finished my book. Divergent. A MUST READ! It was so good, very Hunger Games like, but of course different. I loved every second of it. Read it! We also watched Rigby play Madison for the state championship. Rigby won (of course) so it was pretty awesome! Sunday was great too, we had the opportunity to listen to Elder Cook, right here in Rexburg. It was a great talk!

So even if life does get a little “bluesy” I just look back and realize how blessed I really am. Silly me. All it took was blog post to realize it. Take a hike Winter Blues, don’t come back!

PS - look at this picture I sneakily took of B? Isn't he just so cute, cuddled up on the love seat. When he woke up he was like, I had a crazy dream I just had to fight a Moose off the front yard and battle a cougar. I think only boys have dreams like that!

Friday, March 2, 2012

Memories and Lessons Learned

These pictures were taken exactly a year ago.
 He does this face to me all the time!


One of my most favorite pictures of B!

At this time in my life I was totally in love with B, and all I did all day was analyze and fret over the what if's and the maybe's. I love it.

B always is teasing me because I'm reminiscing all the time. Like "oh did you know a year ago today was our first kiss?" (which it pretty much was), and "A year ago I was crazy in love with you and you probably had no idea"... I find it funny. Probably because I never thought in a million years (ok so I thought about it often) that we would be together, but not only that, be really really happy. I'm grateful I was so diligent about my blogging because I have a lot of pictures and memories to look back on and see what fun we had. Secretly I think B loves that I tease him. It reminds me often how far we've come because in those memories you see how nothing is by chance or coincidence. Everything had to happen for a reason.  Last night I had another "aha" moment. We were driving in the car on the way back from dinner and B just reached over and grabbed my hand and then kissed it. I was transported back to the year before when all I really wanted was him, my best friend, to have the urge to just do that. I tried not to cry because really I had done enough of that yesterday, but really it was a happy cry, because I think finally I saw the entire big picture... I had to let my hair down and little and learn to have fun and have faith and patience, B had to grow up a little and focus on what he wanted. Each memory and each struggle had to lead up to where we are now. We always talk about how we've always been drawn to each other, like magnets. No matter what, we always just end up back talking or laughing. I just love that... Silly me, this post wasn't supposed to be all mushy. Mostly it's just a tickler for me to remember that memories are there for a reason, they are there to teach us what lessons we've learned along the way. More importantly, once you are taught that lesson, don't forget it! Happy Friday have a great weekend!